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I don't know how not to be angry.
it's the safest thing to be
when you don't know
anything

and when you feel a friend leaves you, deceives you
and everyone tells you this is so
I don't know
so I get angry

For a few moments, I do want to die
because I've not felt this way in such a long time
never the rage
never the hatred
outpouring

I always feel that I must go on the offensive
that words and silence aren't enough
I want to squeeze that white white neck
or break those wiry arms...

But I am taught to be civilized now.
To be patient and wait
while my family
cries outrage
and my heart screams for blood

so I can't talk.
I can't even be around- I make mistakes
and stumble over myself.

I can't be eloquent
in this situation.


I don't know how to not be angry.
I don't know if she'll ever get this. It's my way of an apology. I don't even know if I feel one is due...I dunno. Things have gotten out of hand and I'm just venting and augh. Definitely not my best.
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Felka-wolf Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
believe it or not, i actually really like this one (: the repetition is striking and the few lines of "I always feel that I must go on the offensiv'e / that words and silence aren't enough / I want to squeeze that white white neck / or break those wiry arms...
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LoveDestructive Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2012  Student Writer
thank you so much! i was worried my step back into writing would be rocky.
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Felka-wolf Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
haha you are very welcome (:
and it wasn't, not at all :meow:
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LoveDestructive Featured By Owner May 2, 2012  Student Writer
:DD thank you! You're so ultra-supportive it's amazing
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Felka-wolf Featured By Owner May 2, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
you're welcome (:
and haha, thanks
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